Dream come true

Today I am taking the steps to make a dream come true. It wasn't a dream I thought I had until I was graced with motherhood. Today I resigned from my job at the bank.

Yes this is the big news I referred to in my previous post. I couldn't say it then as it wasn't official but now it is. Come July 1 I will be starting my new position as full time mom.

If you had asked me 10 years ago if I would ever dream of being a stay at home mom, I would have flat out said no.

3 years into my journey as a mom and I want nothing more than to be able to be with my children. Not much will change for Kiya now. She needs the social interaction. She is thriving. She does not generally do well with change and with the addition of a little sister we felt it best for her to have as much normal as possible in her life.

We are still hopeful that we will be in the next group of families submitted to the Korean ministry and thus have a lot to do.

I am ready. I am nervous but also excited. It will be the hardest job I have ever had but also the most rewarding. Ultimately we made this decision as a family. My children deserve the best me they can get and working 50 + hours a week wasn't going to make that happen.

So here's to a whole new adventure with my beautiful family.

Taking a deep breath

Breath in, breath out. I can do this. It will get done.

This has been my mantra for the last couple of days. Why? Well some big changes are coming that I can't talk about just yet (sorry) and our adoption process is finally moving. Like really really moving.

Batch 4 was submitted to the Korean ministry for emigration approval. No we were not in it but our agency got all the way through the end of May 2011. Here is where I need to breath. We are July 2011. This last batch got all of March, April and May in. We could possibly be in Batch 5. That means in about 5 weeks our emigration permission could be submitted. It means that in 12-14 weeks or so I might be in Korea finally getting to meet my youngest daughter. Whew.

Now I have been in this adoption world for going on 7 years. Katie's adoption has taken 3 years so far. I am well aware that adoption is an ever changing process so I am  trying not to get my hopes up too high. But if it does happen I have a lot to do.

Our basement remodel is coming along and we are super excited. We have picked all the paint colors, tile, carpet, fixtures, door knobs etc. The drywall is up and being taped and mudded as I type this. We have the fireplace in and the bathtub.

Katie's room looks like a tornado hit it. It is our office. It has 3 computers, 2 desks, a printer, 2 very full bookcases and that doesn't even factor in the closet. When the basement is done the office is moving downstairs and alas we will have a clean slate for Katie's room.

We are weeks away from the basement being completed, we need to paint Katie's room and there is the small matter that she doesn't have a bed or any furniture at all really. She has more clothes than I know what to do with and a ton of toys.

I have fully entered nesting mode again. It is a phase I rather enjoy actually. It keeps me busy and tons of stuff gets done.

We haven't told Kiya that Katie could be home sooner than we had once thought. It is hard for her to understand. She talks about her all the time and how she will help brush her teeth and wash her hair and tell her she can't throw things and share her doll house.

If you happen to have any encounter with me in the next few months, bare with me. I am all over the place. I am super excited and yet trying to be super organized. I have become the obsessive adoptive parent again waiting anxiously for the 651 number to show up on my phone. Again apologies if I am on the phone with you and hang up quickly if I have another call.

Breath in. Breath out. I can do this. It will get done. And best yet I am about to be a mom again.