Something More

Here we are at another Thursday song day. I had a hard time picking a song today so I decided to go with one of my favorites and it is pretty fitting for where I am right now in my life. For family reading this no worries, I am not quitting my job (yet) or doing anything to crazy. So here is "Something More" by Sugarland. I will explain more after you read the lyrics but if you have been reading my blog the past couple of days you will understand why this song is perfect.

"Something More"

Monday, hard to wake up
Fill my coffee cup, I'm out the door
Yeah, the freeway's standing still today
It's gonna make me late, and thats for sure
I'm running out of gas and out of time
Never gonna make it there by nine

There's gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I'm gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I'm looking for
There's gotta be something more

Five years and there's no doubt
That I'm burnt out, I've had enough
So now boss man, here's my two weeks
I'll make it short and sweet, so listen up
I could work my life away, but why?
I got things to do before I die

There's gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I'm gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I'm looking for
There's gotta be something more

Some believe in destiny,
and some believe in fate
I believe that happiness is something we create
You best believe that I'm not gonna wait'
Cause there's gotta be something more

I get home 7:30 the house is dirty, but it can wait
Yeah, 'cause right now I need some downtime
To drink some red wine and celebrate
Armageddon could be knocking at my door
But I ain't gonna answer that's for sure.
There's gotta be something!

There's gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I'm gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I'm looking for
There's gotta be something more

So I have definitely been feeling a little burnt out lately. I don't necessarily enjoy going to work at my current job. I have a been there done that this isn't exciting attitude which isn't good for me or for my staff. I am pretty good at checking my baggage at the front door but work has been pretty stressful and not enjoyable lately. There is a lot of politics and a lot of bsing going on right now and I am not a fan of either. On the flip side my job provides health insurance and VERY flexible hours so we are having to take that into consideration as well.

However, I want something more. I want a family and I want to spend as much precious time as I can with my baby. I know there are logistical and financial things we need to work out and we are working on them but I really don't want to go back to working full time right now. I also realize that I am being a tad selfish and I should be more grateful for what I do have than for what I don't. Don't get me wrong, I feel very fortunate to have so many wonderful blessings in my life but as the song says happiness is something we create. I am more than ready to create my own happiness. It isn't that I am unhappy it is that there are pieces of the puzzle missing or broken. The missing piece is obviously our little one (or ones) and the broken piece right now is my work situation.

Some days I just wonder what that something more might look like and I get excited about the possibilities.