I cry. I have always cried. I have tried to at times hide the fact that I cry a lot but I am okay with it now. I cry at TV shows, commercials for the ASPCA, movies, books you name it and it could make me cry. I am kind of a sap. I cannot watch one full episode of Extreme Makeover Home Edition without crying at least 2 or 3 times.
I cry for joyful reasons too. I cried on an off the day we got our referral for Peanut. There are times when I think about her and I smile and shed a tear. Tears of joy for my baby girl. I cried on Tuesday when I thought about how great my husband's birthday would be next year with Peanut in our lives.
Well, I think my dear husband thinks I am nuts most of the time when I cry at things. In fact the other night, we were doing our thing watching TV and a commercial came of for Disney World. I have never been to Disney World. I have been to Disneyland but I hear they are very different. Anyway, I was staring at the pictures of Peanut and I just started to cry.
I was picturing taking Peanut to Disney World and I just cried. Tears of joy. To see her face light up. The amazement and wonder of it all. I know silly but I couldn't help it. I think about Peanut often. I miss her and I dream of what our lives will be like together. I am anxiously counting the days, weeks and yes still months until we can be together. I know it will be soon but I just want to hold that sweet baby girl in my arms. To make her dreams come true whether she wants to kick around a soccer ball in the yard or play dress up with her dolls or both.
Peanut, know that we love you and think about you every second of every day. I get lost in thought when I stare at your beautiful face. Soon. Soon we can explore and dream and cry together.
3 comments:
Your pretty cute to be looking at peanut's picture while watching tv. I keep thinking that I will stop looking at Myra's picture but I look at it all day long - cooking, driving, thinking, dream. It so wonderful to fall in love with my baby! We are planning a trip to Disney World in Hong Kong!! Can't wait.
I think we're the same person! I cry at everything...and lately I've been crying a lot too. I just look at baby d's picture and I start to cry. Tears of joy, of course, but also because I just wonder how he's doing...is he okay? Is this wait torturous or what? Now imagine the tears that will flow the day we actually meet our babies! xoxo, jess.
I get choked up an a daily basis too. I usually fight them back to prevent strange looks or unneccessary worry from other's who don't like crying in any form. There is a lot of cry fear out there. ha ha. I can't imagine the feeling you must have just waiting for her. Go ahead and plan big for her future b/c Disney World is a must. I can see you three on the Dumbo ride already. Three goofy grins, camera around your neck, and your husband with the video recorder. :) That is good stuff.
Theresa
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