As we approach the 6 months of waiting mark, I have been thinking a lot about this time next year. This time next year I will be a Mom and I can't wait!
Even while we were on vacation, I kept thinking about what our vacation next year will be like with our little one. We were at our church festival this weekend and I was thinking how great it would be to bring our baby to that next year.
I didn't always want to be a Mom. When I was around 18 or so I thought I really didn't want kids. Well, not that long after I thought that I met my husband and that all changed. I wanted nothing more than to have a family. Not right away since we were so young when we got married but eventually. Well, come the year 2003, we decided it was time to realize our dream. I am in no way going to rehash that crazy path that led us to where we are now but I finally feel like I have entered my third trimester in my own way.
There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I know I still have a few months before I get a referral and then 8-12 weeks after that to travel but we are getting so close. Today is a good day. I feel like I can manage this wait. After all we started this in 2003, over 5 years ago so having a few months left feels like nothing. I know that could all change next week and I could be struggling with the wait but right now I am allowing myself to get excited.
I keep dreaming about being a Mom and sometimes I see myself with a little girl since that is all I have known but other times I have seen myself with a little boy. In my heart when I first decided I wanted to be a Mom, I thought for sure that I wanted a little boy and then we were blessed with the twin girls last summer and my heart just melted and I really really wanted a little girl. I still do want a little girl at some point but I know that if i am meant to be the Mom to a little boy too then I will be and I will be just as happy.
So this was our last couples vacation for awhile. We will be a family next year and having thoughts of trips to Disneyworld, the Dells and CA and IL to see our friends.
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