The title describes my mood pretty accurately right now. It is HOT and HUMID outside which I hate. I am tired and have a 6 day work week and just lack motivation to do anything.
I did spray weed killer and I did get up and go to work but other than that not much. I know I posted not that long ago that all the waiting was going pretty well and I cautioned that that could change. Well, I am having one of those down days.
It has been 6 months and 1 week since we were officially approved but our adoption journey was started in September of 2006 so just under 2 years ago. It has been a long, emotional journey to even get to this point and I know the roller coaster ride is far from over.
My latest obsession is that once we do get our referral and make it through court, that when we get our birth certificate it will have a mistake on it. I know crazy, how can I predict that, well I am trying to prepare myself for delays so if they do come it will be easier to take. I also know that my last name is very often misspelled so I am actually going to be shocked if it is spelled correctly the first time.
We were so hoping to have our baby home with us by Christmas when we started this journey but as the time passes, the courts near closing we know that that is not going to happen. We have known this for awhile so we have started thinking about how neat it would be to celebrate hubby's birthday in Ethiopia. His birthday is in February. I hope we don't have to do that but so much is out of our hands. I know if this is when we are supposed to be there then that is when we will be there.
I am relying on faith to get me through this little rough spot. Next week I am sure I will be in Target looking at cute baby stuff getting all excited again. I also know that someday soon this roller coaster will stop and I will get off and be a very proud mama and will truly appreciate every last minute of this wait that led me to my perfect little one. So to my little one, I know you are out there and when you are ready for me, I will come get you. I know God will put us together when the time is right. In the meantime, hang on and know that we love you so much already.
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