Brief update

Well not much going on here today so this will be a brief update.

My new favorite number is 37

I had my expectations confirmed as much as they could be today. In talking with my specialist, she of course said that things are hard to predict but that a fall referral should be possible but all will depend on the summer referrals and how that goes. So we shall see. We have prepared ourselves for a 10-11 month wait with hopes that it would not take that long to get a referral. There is some hope it could happen sooner and if it does what a nice surprise that will be. I am trying to not get my hopes up for anything as I have done that before and then things don't work out and I get a little sad. I am trying to protect my heart a little and think the worst and hope/pray for the best. Ultimately I know that I have to wait for our baby to find us and if that is in October great and if not then they just weren't ready for us yet and they will let us know. We will wait. Heck we have gone through hell and high water in a failed domestic adoption so this isn't so bad. And I know once we see our little one it will all make sense.

PS--I have also been told that specialists in general try to be pretty conservative so as to not get people's hopes up only to let them down if things out of their control change and the wait takes longer than they told you it would. I don't know what that means for us but hopefully it means a fall referral :)