Waiting this time

Someone asked me today what was going on with Little Man's adoption and I had to pause and think. When someone asked me about our first adoption, I could tell them where we were on the unofficial list, my guess at what number we were on the official list, when I thought we might get a referral, how many months and days we have been waiting, etc. It is just different this time. I am different.

Trust me when I say it is not because I am not as excited to have a son. I can't wait but wait I will and with grace or at least I am telling myself that now. The wait for Kiya was VERY tough and I was not at all graceful with it at times. I got down right whiny at times and needed a swift kick in the butt from some wise women.

Having been to Ethiopia and seeing the pure emotion on Kiya's mother's face forever changed my perspective. We have no idea what Little Man's story will be or if we will be able to meet his parents but it doesn't matter. His parents are out there and their heartache is our heartache. We can only hope to meet one or both of them and let them know that we will love on their little guy and take good care of him and teach him to be proud of his heritage and his family.

So this time around it isn't about counting numbers and months, it is about counting our blessings. We plan to enjoy our time with Kiya and know that at some point in the future she will have a little brother. We know that he will be a perfect fit for our family when the time is right. We have that faith having been through it all before and seeing just how perfect Kiya is for our family.

We have been officially waiting for Little Man for a few months now. Next up is some paperwork and once that is done we will continue to enjoy watching Kiya learn and explore and we will prepare her for big sisterhood when the time comes.