My daughter

These two words have found their way into my every day vocabulary and I must say I like the sound of them. My daughter. I still have a hard time believing it and sometimes pinch myself to make sure this is all real. My daughter. I love it and I sure do love her.

She is sweet and funny and a gift far greater than I could have ever imagined. She has profoundly changed my life in ways I didn't even know a baby could. My thoughts are different, my conversations are different, everything is just different and different is good. Very good.

I know sounds weird but here are some examples.

1-I never dreamed I would talk about poop and how much, how often and what it looked like as much as we do.

2-I love my sleep, yet if my little one is sick or doesn't sleep well than neither do I and I am more than okay with that.

3-I miss her when I am away from her and sometimes that really stinks. I didn't really know it was possible to miss someone so much yet when I am away from her it is hard for me to not think about her often. This has gotten oh so much worse now that I am back to work full time and see her less.

4-I dream of more hours in the day and more quality time with her. There are just too many things on our schedule right now and I need to learn to say no. Always a problem for me but I have to. It isn't about me anymore. She needs us.

I know again all over the place blog post but I am in a funk. I am feeling over scheduled and I hate that and I read some sad news on facebook that some college friends lost their little girl 2 months before she was set to be born. It has all got me thinking about how fast kids grow up and I don't want to miss it and how truly grateful and blessed we are to be parents.

We have this amazing little girl and before we know it she is going to be running up the stairs, chasing the dogs and talking more than she already does. I really feel we need to stop and enjoy these moments and get some things off that schedule. Easier said than done. But it is a must. An activity here and there for just mom and dad is great but we have at least one such activity scheduled every weekend from now until Halloween. I hate it therefore I must change it.

Stay tuned for a happier post. Kiya is 10 months old tomorrow :)