It's true, I do. It really hit me yesterday when we were at the Brewer's game and I was walking around with Peanut in the Ergo. She didn't want me to sit in our seats much so we walked, we stood and we mostly watched the game on TV. All the while I couldn't imagine doing anything else.
Sure I wasn't sitting with my husband in our seats down the 3rd base line but I was with my daughter and we were bonding. I love being a Mom. I was pretty sure I would and it just feels right. Better than right, it is perfect. A dream come true.
I am facing the reality of having to go back to work in 2 weeks and I am NOT looking forward to it. I am deeply going to miss our days together. Sometimes we hang out at home and other days we hit Target or go for a walk. It is going to be different come August 10th and I hate that. The one plus is that I don't work standard 9- 5 hours so I should be able to be home most days by 1pm.
I think it is probably a good thing that I am not going to be the one to drop Peanut off at Grandma and Grandpa's or at daycare. I wouldn't leave. I want to stay with her. You can be for sure that I will be hurrying home from work so we can hang out again at least for a little bit before nap time.
Just when we were finally settling in to our new schedules things are going to change. Peanut is very adaptable, her Mom not so much. We will manage and it will get easier but those first few days back are going to be very tough. I can look forward to hiring a cleaning service though so I don't have to spend my time after work cleaning the house and can better spend it with Peanut.
Peanut pictures coming soon as baby girl is almost 8 months old :)
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